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| Projecting Projects For a Projected Future |
| 04.23.05 (10:07 pm) [edit] |
Okay I read the blogs, commented on, get repulsed by others, but yes to answer that basic question, I'm here, lurking in the shadows. It's what I do. I do have a limited contact with a few. I try mainly to stay in my own Dark Mood world - staying out of the bullshit others called life or getting mixed in up in the swirl of crap coming.
No I don't pay attention to rumors, nor do I care about any that are started about me, (unless it involves alcohol, sex, some really good leather & maybe perhaps a video camera).
I've been rather busy (yeah it's a general blanket excuse, but it works). Dealing with computers, morons (damn, they just seem to come out of nowhere), & help making business deals go smooth.
Also trying to replace all my music that got jacked out of my ride. Pisses me off. I have the Winger - Winger Tape (the cd got jacked) but it doesn't have the bonus track which I like with the song Higher & Higher.
Manic Depression with a twist of lime & a grain of crushed salt. Does it taste any better than that when you get the winter cabin fever bug. Who knows, who cares.
Well 1 future project is to remake my header perhaps link a tune here maybe something cheery.
Oh before I forget, see ya to IrishRed - your blog will sorely be missed. Your wit & humor was tops. They style was great to read.
To Godsmack - What the hell - No link to my blog. Better get cracking to correct that injustice.
For the rest - Life is not always what you want. As I always tell people, what you want & what I give you are two different things. Think about it. Rephrase your question & then go from there.
DarkMood
Listening To: Cinderella
Song: Nobody's Fool
CD: Rocked, Wired & Bluesed The Greatest Hits
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| I'm Lurking & Coming Back |
| 03.17.05 (6:42 pm) [edit] |
Yes I've been busy. In the process of getting things squared away. Life happens. I'm around and will be blogging shortly again.
This is just to inform you that being sober is no fun or is it?
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| My Favorite Drink |
| 02.03.05 (9:20 pm) [edit] |
Right now at the moment...
A very spicey Bloody Mary.
Damn these are tastey.
Oh yeah & the Screen Savers suck on G4tech Tv.
A bunch of fucking idiots, might as well as get strippers & watch it. Bring back the old crew. Oh well fuck it then.
DarkMood
Listening To:Squeeged Snot
Song:You Pretend To Moan, I'll Pretend I'm The Worlds Best Lover.
CD:Tribute To Squeeged Snot Vol. 2
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| Computers vs Morons Round 2 |
| 01.28.05 (6:55 am) [edit] |
Well it's seems MU2 came in last night while I was troubleshooting another computer & requested that I put on some of the programs that got lost in the reformat process. Now what pisses me off, is before I finished MU1/MU2's computer (I was about 99% done), I made a call to make sure of any changes and/or adds to the computer's software. I usually add the following to a client's computer. A free antivirus program (AVG - www.grisoft.com - download the free version), all the updates are free, this saves the client money, a free antispyware program (Usually Ad-aware, all updates are free). So I don't try & screw a client, I actually try to save them money up front & in the long run.
But before I start or I'm about finish a job, I usually talk directly to the client about what needs to be done, what they can expect from me(all options good & bad), when they can expect the computer back. In turn I ask what they want saved if I can save any information, what they want reinstalled if anything & what they expect.
Automattically I stated to MU2 that I asked, you didn't mention anything other than what I put on & YOU wanted to reinstall items you said you had a disk for. MU2 voice started to rais saying at the time MU2 couldn't think straight. I'm thinking, oh great, this shrill voice bitch has a computer, picked MU1 off the internet & NOW admits IT can't fucking think.
So to calm things down I told MU2 to make a list of software that IT reinstalled, write it down, then bring in said computer & I would personally make sure everything is set right this time around.
I really loathe stupid people, morons & just plain idiots & I'm really going to ask the next person who even remotely fits this profile, where your are your parents to be like this because I want to thank them for really showing me that genetic inbreeding does.
DarkMood
Listening To:Squeeged Snot
Song: Oscars For Your Porn Performance
CD: Tribute To Squeeged Snot Vol. 2
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| Sled Warning Label - What A Joke. |
| 01.21.05 (9:02 pm) [edit] |
It's been cold here, not that cold for me but cold for others. So I decided to go out sledding. Not a bad thing to do, but when did sleds come with warnings?
That is right, my new neon green mean machine came with a warning that I should wear goggles , maybe helmet because it increases speed on the way down. Now I thought well, duh? That is the reason you go down a hill, so you can smack into people coming up the hill, to watch bodies flaying around you & others trying to get out of your way. Ahhhh the carnage of winter.
It also says on this little warning label that I should avoid fixed objects, like trees.
I know there was some person in the R & D dept. who thought, if they took this sled down fast enough they would reach the speed of light & turn into pure energy & go thru the tree. Of course you know that someone probably tried it out & failed to go thru the tree let around the tree. The person who probably tried this was drunk at the time & has a bump on the head that wont go away for a very long time.
I don't really know who makes these warning labels for sleds, but I'm hoping that they understand the dynamics of having fun with out any goggles, helmets or idiots around.
But I doubt it.
DarkMood
Listening To: Squeeged Snot
Song: Cell Phone Vibrating Love Call
CD: Tribute To Squeeged Snot Vol. 2
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| Computer vs. Morons Round 1 |
| 01.18.05 (8:56 am) [edit] |
Makes you wonder why some people have computers when there are perfectly good shiney rocks going to waste out there in the world.
How does this relate, I'm glad you asked. I was freelancing doing a freebie computer for a sibling of mine when a customer came in (actually a friend of the store owner where I freelance...let's call this person Moron User 1...MU1 & there other half MU2) with there tower & said I don't know what's wrong.
Okay fair enough, some people don't know what's wrong initially, that's where I come in, so I asked what we're you doing when it decided to die on you.
MU1 answered I was trying to get on my computer.
Okay I replied, let's back that up a bit more, what were you doing before that.
MU1 replied was *I turned on my computer.
My reply, "Okay what did you do on the web before it died?", sometimes I forget you have to be real specific when dealing with MU.
OH that, well MU2 said the antivirus said we got a trojan.
Well now isn't that a nice, how did i know that was going to be a possible answer.
So I hooked up the infected pc & yes to MU1 credibility I couldn't get on in normal or safemode.
Seems MU1 or MU2 may have gotten more than a just a trojan but a worm. A worm is more nasty than just a simple trojan virus. It seems the Lsass file is/may still be infected but it is corrupted.
I asked MU1 if they had any discs that came with the computer (it's always good to have these stored in safe place). I knew this was coming next, MU1 said I really dont know where they are. I guess we cant all be smart users.
Well I pop in a disc I have, it goes thru the usual log in modes & then goes into recovery mode, then it asks for a admin pw, to which for MU1 computer I dont have, so I ask do you know your password. MU1 Mu2 don't know. Great.
So I make a suggestion that worse comes to worse, formating & reinstalling the OS so they have a clean system. MU1 says if thats an option thats good but MU2 may not like that, so I called MU2 & explained the options.
I also asked what important data may be lost, I always ask this just in case the have finicial records, personal data, pics & they understand that the reformatting a HD wipes all information out & to understand that they might want to start contacting people they do finicial stuff online with.
MU2 gave the go ahead Then MU2 asked how long before they get the computer back, I replied 24-48 hours.
MU1 was okay with it, MU2 was pissed & said if you want to take to another place go ahead, I'm sure they'll charge you more than *your friends* here will, also I guess this was MU2 source of life. It's also how MU2 met MU1.
The Internet bringing morons together since they cant get laid on there own.
Now I have things I have to get done, so does the team I work with, our clients understand that & are really cool with that. They give us a week to work the computers. usually we finish it up in 3 days. But never a complaint about when we finish.
I asked MU2 why wasnt anything backed up, pics, documents, to the which I got the following answer..just never got around to it. I said we have a word for that it's called being Lazy & it really bit you in the ass this time.
Okay I've ranted about this long enough but there are 2 points to be made here.
1. Always back up files, pictures, documents, anything that you dont want wiped out or in case of a virus getting into your computer.
2. Make sure you have your original discs that came with the computer/hardware & there in a safe place. This will actually help you if you need to reinstall something that may get corrupted on your computer.
Whatever you call them morons, idiots, fools, everyone deals with them on a daily basis. It just seems I found the motherlode, they have computers & they won't leave me alone.
DarkMood
Listening To: Squeeged Snot
Song: Of Course I'll Love You When I'm Sober.
CD: Tribute To Squeeged Snot Vol. 2
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| Void Good Week If Anything Good Were To Happen |
| 01.16.05 (3:04 pm) [edit] |
This week totally blew chunks.
How?
1. My car got broke into, the asshole(s) took my 80's cd Hair Metal collection. Motley Crue Live in Concert, Alice Cooper Live in Concert, Vixen, Poison, Dokken,Metallica,Megadeth , a few remix of tunes done by other artists, like Alice Cooper doing Jimi Hendrix, Sam Kinison doing Wild thing, Mississippi Queen & Under My Thumb. You get the idea.
2. Well you can't play CDs without a CD Player & you also need the Tape Kit that went with it. Yup they got that.
3. My little one got a burn on the hand by touching the stove & me being ingnorant. I felt so stupid for it happening. It won't happen again.
4. Me & my little one went sledding, we took a small mogul, lost balance, rolled, got a bumped noggin. Just didn't see the mogul till it was too late & it was bitterly cold outside. So anything hurt related was maginified in the eyes of a child.
5. I was working on 2 computers for a family member, they both fried. They were old systems, but nonetheless they picked the time to choke while I was working on them.
6. Found out the lighting fixture I was working on may not be the wiring after I took it all apart but the lightbulb fixture itself. Time wasted there.
So as this week closes out, I'm going to raise a glass of whiskey & cola, say a toast that may go like this.."May the ghosts of this week haunt someone else, because if you ever grace my presences again, I'm gonna burn the entire world to a cinder or get drunk until I fall asleep into a blissful coma.*
DarkMood
Listening To:Squeeged Snot
Song: Euphoria Love Machine Batterys Not Included
CD: Tribute To Squeeged Snot Vol. 2
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| Dealing With Computers, Idiots & Passwords. |
| 01.14.05 (5:06 am) [edit] |
Okay along the lines of why you should always memorize your password vs. save it to whatever website or program your using. This is called now get this....common sense.
What do I mean. Well it goes something like this. I just set up a client of mines computer & was saying it isnt really a good idea to save your password if your going to have your children around the computer. Why? Well as I explained, you the user step away to do something or they want to play a game on the computer. Well like most kids will do, they'll start clicking away & they could start programs without them really understanding what they're clicking (Instant Messaging programs for instance). Now let's just say your friends get on and start sending you porno pics or send you a link to a something thats less than pleasant to look at on the web. Well that little mind is going to start asking questions, like *Why is that man being pushed from behind by that other man?*
One other reason, where I freelance, we rebuild computers we get from sales & people who just don't want them anymore. Well my partner and I like to see what is on the computer. Oh we find the usual, music, family pics & the usual porn sometimes. But on this one occassion we found that someone used a certain ISP (AOHELL) & had the password saved. Hooked up a network line & found out the account was still active. From a hackers point, this was a goldmine, not to mention identity theft goldmine. Then I wanted to see if the IM program(YAHELL) was the same. Yes. I walked right in just because someone saved thier password. Well, then let's go one further, accessed the email option. Once again, I was in like a virgin on prom night. I could read any & all mail, including a name & password notification related to another website. In case your wondering, the information on the computer will be completely erased when the hard drive is reformatted.
So see I'm not that evil when it comes to all idiots.
So the lesson here my dear reader(s) is that if your going use a computer, be on the web, use some common sense. The world is full idiots & I really hate to see the population increase by one because they don't really don't think about what the digital age is really capable of.
DarkMood
Listening To: Spinal Tap
DVD: This Is Spinal Tap (Audio Commentary)
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| Old In A New Way |
| 01.12.05 (3:18 am) [edit] |
IT'S INTERESTING TO SEE & FIND THINGS IN THIS MODERN AGE OF PSUEDO TECHNO REFURBISHED. WHAT SEEMS NEW IS JUST ACTUALLY OLD BUT REVAMPED IN THIS AGE OF DIGITAL.
WHAT??? HOW DO YOU MEAN. OK HERE IS AN EXAMPLE. I WAS A DOING SOME FREELANCE WORK WITH A FRIEND & MY FRIEND WAS GOING THRU SOME *BLANK* CDS. SINCE WE HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS ON THEM, I WAS TOLD TO SEE WHAT WAS ON THEM.
WELL IT TOOK A WHILE FOR A CERTAIN CD TO LOAD UP, SO I WENT BACK TO TROUBLE SHOOTING ANOTHER COMPUTER. WHEN I TURNED AROUND I NOTICED ON THE CD THERE WERE 3 FILE FOLDERS. OKAY I WAS WONDERING WHAT WAS IN THEM. SO I DID A VIRUS SCAN, OKAY THE FILES WERE CLEAN (YES EVEN ON A CD YOU PUT A VIRUS ON IT.), SO I DECIDED TO SEE WHAT WAS IN THEM.
NAKED PICTURES. NOT JUST 1 OR 2 BUT OVER 500 PICTURES OF SOME WOMAN, A FEMALE FRIEND & 1 OR 2 OF WHAT SEEM TO BE HER PARTNER MIXED WITH SOME FAMILY SHOTS. SOME *GLAZED* SHOTS, BUT MOSTLY POSES.
WOULDN'T HAVE MINDED BUT SHE WASN'T THAT PRETTY WELL TO ME AT LEAST. WELL MY FRIEND & I JUST LOOK AT THESE, LAUGHED & TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHO THESE PEOPLE WHERE. YES THAT'S RIGHT, WE TRIED TO FIGURE WHO THE PEOPLE WERE SO WE COULD GIVE THEM BACK THE DISC. RATHER THAN JUST RUN INTO THEM ACCIDENTLY ON THE STREET AND SAY *HEY THIS WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE WITH ALL YOUR CLOTHES ON & A CLEAN FACE*. NOT SURE IF I REALLY WANT TO SEE THESE PEOPLE WITH THERE CLOTHES ON EITHER.
MY POINT IN BLOGGING ABOUT THIS IS, IF YOUR GOING TO TAKE REVEALING SHOTS OF YOU OR WHOEVER & WANT TO KEEP IT A SECRET. REMEMBER TO HIDE THE DISC, ENCRYPT THE DISC FILES OR JUST PLAIN DESTROY IT BY BURNING IT OR BREAKING IT.
JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS OF CAMERA & FILM, DIDNT WANT ANYONE TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR *OTHER* LIFE, YOU COULD SIMPLY DESTROY THE EVIDENCE.
I GUESS MOST PEOPLE FORGET ABOUT THAT WHEN TAKING COMPROMISING PICTURES OF THEMSELVES & DON'T THINK ANYONE IS GOING TO SEE THEM.
DARKMOOD
LISTENING TO: SQUEEGED SNOT
SONG: VICODINE DREAMS
CD: TRIBUTE TO SQUEEGED SNOT VOL. 2
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| Intentions That Not May Be Met. |
| 01.05.05 (6:49 am) [edit] |
Well 2k4 was certainly interesting. I think with the 2k5 that things tend not to be so exciting in the *guess who died* dept.
Now on for what seems to be like the endless theme on some peoples mind with the onslaught of well wishes for the new year. Resolutions.
1. Procastinate even less - yes I know it's ironic that Im blogging this after the 1st. But I am making the effort.
2. Read more. I do alot of reading as is but I'm going to broaden it to encompass more finicial reading & more hacking news.
3. Network more for my friends & clients. My friends are very set in their careers but very limited in their contacts. Now I get the basic contacts everyday so if I can lead them to the right people then it's a bonus for me. No not finicially, I wish but more as of a friend deal. Of course the sinister dark plan is, when they make it rich, I can sponge off them.
4. Mod a computer. While not entirely too hard to do, just takes time to do. Also working on a theme right now. Just got to get it all set up first then go from there. Where ever there is.
5. Clean up computer area. It's a chaos order, but to outsiders it's a mess. Mortals.
6. Work on some graphic designs for my blog & header. Since I dumped my old ISP, my FTP site went with it, along with that FTP was my header which was stored there. So time to design a new one.
Along with blogging a bit more often.
7. Loose weight. Yeah Yeah like this isnt the usual plight of someone at the beginning of the new year. For me tho, I like to cook & eat. A curse since I know my way around a kitchen. A blessing because I can cook from scratch & I never go hungry unless I just feel like procastinating.
8. The biggie of all. Be a little more tolerable of new computer users, friends, & family members & morons. Morons includes those I've left out or that fall into the category of computer users, friends & family members.
Well like it all says on the bottom of any warranty, any part or all of the above is subject to change at any point in time.
Good luck to you & your goals this year. Remember if you didnt succeed at fulfilling them from last year, blame it on someone else or whatever works for ya.
DarkMood
Listening to: Squeeged Snot
Song: Ain't Pride You Gotta Swallow Babe
CD: Tribute To Squeeged Snot Volume 2
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| Warning Idiots Are Closer Than They Appear |
| 12.25.04 (6:53 pm) [edit] |
So it's yet the passing of another christmas holiday. Well so just you know the fuck up fairy has once again graced my presence. Oh not in the way that one would think.
Oh how did the fuck up fairy of happy sobering holidays visit me?
1. I found out I have more relatives than I thought I knew.
2. I found out my father was married to another woman while married to my mother but it wasn't legal ( what!!!??? Go figure), well the woman I thought he married, he wasnt married too, while living with but married to another woman.
Confused? I know my therapist is thinking, with this guy, I can put my kid thru grad school & pay off the Lexus.
I can honestly say if I ever go to a family reunion, I can ask, So, are you my mother?
3. My mother is currently going thru a divorce from my 3rd father & needs to take pictures of the house. Really stupid shit, left car parts all over the basement, he punched holes in the walls, never, ever repaired them. Just plain drywall, I had offered on more than one occassion to fix the house out of my pocket, but I got turned down. The saying was OH, he'll get around to fixing it up (this was the constant saying.).
Now it's time to take pictures of the damage, one of my siblings is going to take pictures with a digital camera & I was asking my mother about how she was going to present the evidence to the judge. She had that deer in the headlight look, know that look? It's like what do you mean.
So I asked again, how are you going to present the pictures to the judge. Still the same look & fucked up answer. So I suggested, that I bring my camera, a laptop with a burner on it & burn the pictures to a cd & then we could go to a shop that would print the out pictures. This way everyone is happy, she has archived evidence, pictures. She said how much would it cost to print out the pictures, I said not to worry about it, I would handle the costs.
4. One of my relatives asked me to fix a computer for them for a gift for a cousin of mine. Well another cousin reformatted the hard drive to a degree but it locked up after that. But thats not the bad part, he reconfigured the hard drives, and played in the BIOS. It took me a few hours with the help of my contacts to undo what the fuck up fairy's minion did. It was all good to go in 24 hours & delivered with all the items I put on my clients. Then I showed them how to use my relatives this what you do, & told my cousin, don't touch the insides. I dont want to deal with your ability to be the fuck up fairy's minion.
5. My mother had to go & piss off the fuck fairy on christmas eve, dont ask me how. As a tradition to her & a gift, I attend a midnight service on christmas eve. Well she got in her car, all the 3 doors locked down. So she was locked in her car, I was tired, awaiting a call to SEE if she was going to go, if she wasnt going, neither was I & then it was going to be drink time for me.
I digress, I got a call, asking me if I could meet her at her house, no problem, then it she switched it, to a local store that was open. So we could get some deicer for her locks.
Well I get to the store, she mentioned that one of my siblings is already in the store & to make sure she gets what the stuff. So I go in, like the good person I am, & I do find my sibling getting assitance from a store person (SP). Then the SP procedes to give me a lecture on the properties of water and how to melt it. Really, you would think at my age I was going to urinate on the locks hoping that would have thawed the electronic mechanics of it. Then the SP suggests that I get a syringe. I told him, no thanks I gave up shooting herion for Christmas. & told him its most likely electrical, so shooting any type of liquid wasnt the wisest thing to do. He agreed. What a revelation.
Well my sibling goes out to the car with a few things that was needed & my mother proceded to tell me not to worry about it & she was going home. I said okay but call me when you get home, or I will call you at 2 a.m. & just to make sure your home. Well she did call me. Guess what? The car doors started to work again. I just gave her advice that she should have let her car warm up next time.
Not that it was a little late on the advice but it was a given thing when your going out into 10 degree temps.
5. After my mother left the store, I decided to do some shopping & get another call, mind you its now 12:30 & it's Christmas. My little one got sick & throw up all over the bed, blanket & pillow. Not that I mind, my little one's diet was sugar, cookies, anything sweet. It was Christmas.Well I got a few things that was needed for my little one. I proceded to get things done. A bath was needed because throw up isnt a good a hair conditioner, got fought on that by my little one. My little one's tummy hurt, so it was said, so I try to make it better but I was a bastard about it. Two things will only hurt my little one. Me or God. Anyone else, there will be a black day coming. Anyways, I had the bed stripped, fresh everything went on, got some medicine into my little one. Got fresh pajamas on, that was a battle too. Then my little one did a few dry heaves, after a bit, the tummy aches went away & eventually fell asleep on the couch. I then but my little one back to bed.
I told my girl, that I have the night shift, you have the day shift. Sent her to bed. I stayed up until just to make sure there were'nt anymore problems. My little one did wake up thirsty but that was normal, gave a drink, then a tuck back in bed.
Eventually the fuck up fairy moved on to another family.
Christmas Day was very good to me however the events leading up to it weren't.
May everyone who reads this & to those who don't read it...have a exceptional holiday season & may your New Year be filled with an industrial size can of FUFR. ( That's Fucked Up Fairy Repellant.)
DarkMood
Listening To:Guns N' Roses
Song: You Could Be Mine
Off The Web
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| How To Incite A Mental Meltdown |
| 11.30.04 (5:10 pm) [edit] |
Well it's been a fun week so far by just doing what comes naturally & that is just being me.
Makes you wonder how some people can get tweak over a simple statement or when you follow their rules. Okay time to move on from this. Next is probably the most annoying question I got asked. But I generally dealt with like everything else. I laughed at the person (to which I refer as SP - stupid person). Oh what was the question?
It was *How do I hack* to which I responded, well if you don't know the consquences of your intended actions then your going to look good in prison gay and make a lot of new friends. Don't mean that in a good way either.
I asked SP , why do you want to?
Ask most hackers & they respond with, I want to see whats out there or I want to test the system. Most hackers aren't evil little humans. A few are but those are generally script kiddies or wannabes.
Well SP didnt tell me the true intention(s). Like that was going to be discussed. But since SP didn't tell, I did refer to them to a few sites out there about hacking & told SP to read. Oh I did mention a few programs & what they do. Just the generic stuff out there but once again that went over SP's head.
Then I asked if SP was going to look or go warchalking & look for hotspot(s). To which I got a....Ummm whats that.
The point of this is this...Don't come to me asking for my advice if your not going to understand it. Most of my contacts are advanced computer users. Most of my contacts have brain cells that function beyond the porn sites that the rest of the society sees.
Now in general, I don't mind helping out the average computer user BECAUSE they listen & want to learn...well at least on the blogging sites they do.
DarkMood
Listening To: KISS
Song: Duece
Off the Web: IcebergRadio
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| The Art of Being Not Anywhere |
| 11.24.04 (9:36 pm) [edit] |
I KNOW IT'S JUST LIKE ME TO JUST PUT SOMETHING ON THIS BLOG EVERY NOW AND THEN.
I CAN'T SAY I REALLY BLAME THE LACK OF ENTHUSIASM ON MY PART. I HAVE LOT TO BLOG ABOUT, BUT LATELY NOT THE DRIVE.
NOW DONT GET ME WRONG, I REALLY LIKE TO WRITE, RELEASE THOSE INNER DEMONS I HAVE & SHARE THEM. BUT AT THIS POINT, JUST FEELING LAZY.
THE SUMMER IS OVER, I CAN'T HANG AT THE BEACH. TOTAL BITCH.
I NEED TO GET FUCKED. ANY SEX IS GOOD. YEAH THAT WOULD SNAP ME BACK TO WHAT YOU NORMAL PEOPLE CALL REALITY.
NO, USING MY HAND ISN'T GOING TO DO IT. OF COURSE THE FANTASY OPTION IS THERE WITH THE HAND, BUT IT DOESN'T SWALLOW, JUST SPITS ANY THING I GIVE IT. USE YOUR IMAGINATION ON THAT ONE MY READER(S)
I DO HOWEVER WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE KRAZEDONE (MY MAIN SEXY BLOGGING BITCH) FOR LINKING ME ON HER PAGE WITH THE ICON (GO LOOK FOR YOURSELF) & FOR PUMPING A WEB RADIO STATION ON HER BLOG.
I GUESS IF SOMEONE OR SOMETHING WAS GOING TO GET PUMPED WHY NOT A BLOG WITH SOME TUNES. AT LEAST THERES NO MESS TO CLEAN UP AFTER.
DARKMOOD
LISTENING TO: GUNS N' ROSES
SONG: WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE
CD: LIVE IN MSG, NY 2002
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| Always Smiling In The Dark |
| 10.18.04 (12:29 am) [edit] |
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Well my reader(s) I've been really busy for the last couple of weeks. Doing the odd things. I plan to blog alot here in the future, right now the time is rather constricting shall we say.
An ode to those who have gone the way of the cyber road.
Navygirl, NightQueen, Mollytov, Bondageslut, the list continues to grow with each passing moment. I do so miss the blogs. They each had there own quirkiness to them. To their blogs, the people who wrote their life & their memories I raise my glass. May you continue to suffer in your angst & share that pain with others. Such a sweet pain should never be held back.
DarkMood
Listening To: Guns & Roses
Song: Reckless Life
CD: Gn'R Lies
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| Paying For Free Advice |
| 08.28.04 (7:11 pm) [edit] |
I know I haven't been updating my blog...well it's the summer, I do other things, like commenting on other blogs.
But I do read blogs.
Okay my rant for now is this. Why does a certian store charge $300 for an outdated operating system) OS thats not even being supported. (Yes I know its a license fee, labor & installation fee but that doesn't change the facts)
I have 2 clients right now that want this but they can't afford that in their budget. Okay let's go with an open source OS that's free. Ohhh you mean you didnt know there was a rival to the winBLOWS? It's called Linux. But that would mean the clients have to relearn how to do things. Now if it were me, yes I would go with free but I dont need to at this point, after all I do have a free browser that rivals IE, free anti virus protection, free email, free games online, free IM programs, free news feed, free graphics & a free blogging site. Wierd huh?
I manage to save more than I would happen to spend. Try to explain this to the average user of a pc but they don't like to hear the word *free*.
Most people expect to hear a cost factor. When I give free IT/computer tips out to who ever and where ever, I always get the same look. It's a look of What the fuck are you doing not charging for the advice your giving. When I see this look I usually tell them why Im doing this & it's this, either I give the advice for free now & you listen or you come to me, pay me my fee & then we go from there.
What happens next is just really outrageous. They open up to me, now they don't tell me what exactly they do on the web, but usually you can tell where they're going with this. I mention porn sites & what they do.....they get that *shit he knows I go to see kittens get juggled* site....no I dont, but I know what type of items sites like this like to drop onto your computer with out your knowledge. So I tell them what programs to run, give them a business card if they want one with some sites on the back and a pat on the head saying *Now be a good internet user* LOL...yeah right, they'll see me and have to pay me.
Isn't being evil fun when you know they won't listen to free advice.
*Side note* Never try and type when your in pain drinking alcohol to kill the pain with another computer geek looking over your shoulder correcting your entries...it could lead to sex. I mean really good geek sex. Or just good cyber fantasy sex. Or something like that.
DarkMood
Listening To: Sacred Reich
Song: The Way It Is
CD: The American Way
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| Want To See Into My DarkMood |
| 08.11.04 (11:15 pm) [edit] |
How's this for free! I have a web cam (yeah no big thing). So I wanted to see if I could link it to my blog. After so much freakin crap out there, trying to learn how to program in java, perl & whatever language you can think of on the fly, I found a site that will do all the work for me. No Im not advertising for them. I just wanted to see if I could make this thing work & then pass it on to other people. What the link, leave me a friggin message.
I did find another site that was just as cool but I couldnt link it & show it up on my blog. Now I might just add this to the EBLOG site to see how that goes. Take NOTE Rocky & Tblurt users, I've done all this for free so far. A video chat room with texting & it's 99% compitable. Next is doing audio with the video.
Not the best in the world but then again not the worst for free.
I am such a geek but a geek with an attitude.
DarkMood
Listening To: Ukes of Hazzard aka The Hazzards
Song: Gay Boyfriend
Off The Web.
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| Memories Are Sadistic |
| 08.09.04 (8:00 pm) [edit] |
It's amazing how people come & go in a blink of an eye. What seems to be an eternity, is just gone like a wisp of breath on a cold morning.
I miss some of the blogs that use to be here, the people, the insight & their memories would trigger my memories of what of my life was like or I lived there memories through their words. Alas people move on. Such is the same for time, . Sometimes its best that the darkness envelopes there passing. Fading memories are a sadistic reminder that the life is still there but they physicals aspect is permanently gone. No renewal, no adding on to such things. Just gone.
Of course Sadistic can have its reward, but sometimes it spills over into the so called human reality of life. For that I only wish to be alone. I can't step outside myself when it happens. I'm a raging bastard of razors & paper cuts with bleeding slits in the flesh with salt smashed in. I really try to control this side of me. I loathe it at times, I see my darkness come out. I feel it consume the very light inside me, tainting it. I try to reign it in, but I refuse to run from it. Running has its own deep regrets. I wonder at times if I run from it, am I a coward. Coward for not standing up to that inner darkness, a coward for letting consume my soul. Letting that darkness effect my reality and then letting that darkness seep out into and effect others around me. The anger, the rage, the emotional pain of being Dark and not running from it.
I wonder at time does death hold the key to the release of this darkness? But then again is that a cowardly way out? Suicide isn't an option that's the ultimate act of being cowardly & the world & whatever God(s) you believe in probably doesn't condone it as well.
But the more you live, the more the darkness lives. Is this some drawn out punishment given to me or others like me. Life is the ultimate punishment for living in the darkness. The more you try to eliminate the darkness the more it tries to filter back into life by consuming the cracks of inadequacies in your life. Eliminate those cracks, new ones will show up. There called memories & memories can be sadistic.
DarkMood
Listening To: EVANESCENCE
Song: My Last Breath
CD: Fallen
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| The Insanity of the Living |
| 07.13.04 (11:24 pm) [edit] |
[b] Now that NB has been *put to rest* you would think his relatives would have started to move on & clean the place up to sell it. Yes, I do realize it must be traumatic to loose someone but these people need to move on. Also yes I did consider that things may be locked up in probate court but NB didn't have a whole lot in house. Ironically one of his relatives came & got his truck.
The place is infested with bugs & that's just the start of it. The smell from NB's place is a little easier to tolerate but that's because the someone aired some of the place out. Doesn't hurt that I live across the street either. For the most part, nothing has been touched & the city health inspector has condemned the place. The power is still on, but the moment the power goes off, any perishable item that has been left behind in the fridge will start to spoil. WOW a whole new smell to tolerate in the summer heat. The grass hasn't been mowed. The grass isn't really an issue here but if they want to sell the place really fast you would think its easier to sell with a mowed yard.
I call it selective greed without the getting messy. Just take what you can & let someone worry about the hell that's been created. What a pisser that there are people like this in the world at times & yes I've seen this happen in my lifetime but not with NB's relatives, my own.
Death of a loved one can send emotions of greed, resentment, pity & stupidity reeling into a spiral of pathetic & loathing. Ha humanity at it's lowest point. Makes you want to throw back a few drinks, smile & laugh at the insanity of it all.
DarkMood
Listening To:Evanescence
Song:Whisper
CD:Fallen[/b]
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| Burying the Memories of the Dead |
| 07.11.04 (3:57 pm) [edit] |
[b] Well, they finally buried NB. The first couple of nights when the lights weren't on at NB's, it seems really eerie. 2 days of being drunk after finding him trying to get the image out of my head. Wow no hangover but very tired. Not as young as I thought when it comes to drinking.
I met with NB's relatives that showed up, answered all the questions for the most part what I knew. The strangest questions I had to answer were,
"Was he gay?" asked by a detective. My first reaction was, HOW the hell would I know, does it matter NB hung himself. Do most gay's hang themselves? But I answered No, I don't think NB was.
"Was NB naked?"...asked by one relative. Now I saw NB hanging & he did appear to be clothed, but what type of question is that to ask? Who Cares?!! Your relative hung himself. Do you think it he was making fashion statements & pissed off about the current fashions coming out of Milan? But I answered he was clothed.
After piecing some of this morbid puzzle together with NB's relatives, neighbors & police, it seems NB was on prosaic & stopped taking it 5 days earlier. He had also stopped eating too, even though there was food in the house & money didn't seem to be an issue, a relative found unemployment checks uncashed. He had job opportunities from neighbors but never took them up on it, couldn't get back into the military (he missed the re enlist for his age bracket by a few months, too old) & his brakes went out on his truck. He didn't get along with some of his relatives (name me one person who does & I'll show you a heavily medicated person drooling who's seeing pretty colors).
So it could have been a combination of severe depression, a lot of little things & missed opportunities or he was just trying to see how long he could hang around the house before someone found him. Only NB & his deity know. May NB find peace at last from his wretched world and stupid reality TV shows.
DarkMood
Listening to: Alice Cooper
Song: Lost in America
CD: Alice Cooper Classicks[/b]
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| Raise your hand if you found a dead body. |
| 06.26.04 (12:23 am) [edit] |
[b]Well, yes I know its been along time between writing in my blog, but hey its the summer and I've discovered sex...woohooo. Who knew it felt good with a woman rather than alone. But I digress
:::Raising hand in the air::: I blogged about Neighbor B (NB just read my archives) & how I discussed he wasn't all there, well now I can honestly say (or type in this case) isn't here any longer in the mortal coil sense.
Oh just how did I discover this little fact?
My next door neighbor (let's call her S) approached me & asked me if I had seen NB in the last 2 weeks, to which I said "no," & I explained that I've been busy, doing the summer thing.
Well, she asked me to see if NB was home or at least alert, because things didn't seem right, so I said just knock on his door. She had this look, like *ummm I don't want to do it*...so I told her I don't have a problem doing it. But NB comes & goes at odd hours & is pretty much a loner. (I don't know of any of his friends but then again not many people know of mine either.) There wasn't any bells or whistles going off here about any wrong doing or apparent change in NB's demeanor like there usually is suicidal people or at least that I would have noticed. SO I ventured across the street & knocked on the door, to which NB's beagle was just barking at me & kept looking to a hallway. NOW I didn't go in but the front door was open & the screen door was shut (it's against the law to just go into someone's house regardless if there dead or not go figure). I did notice the place was a mess looking through the screen door but NB was single & I was once single. So I didn't think anything of it.
Well I went back to across the street to talk to S & tell her I didn't find anything out of the ordinary but I would venture around back & look into some windows to see if NB was home. Most of the windows had blinds on them but the first window on the side of the house didn't & looked in. What I saw next just floored me & I'm on my 3rd Whiskey & cola MUG. I found NB hanging in the closet. I went back to S & said call the authorities now (calmly), she asked why as she dialed them. I told her just dial them & explained NB is dead. S asked are you sure, I said come on, lets go look through the window & you can verify for yourself. She looked in. Sure enough NB was deceased. Hanging yourself can do that do ya.
My girl just came home & asked what happen (we have a 3 yr. old together), I told her leave with the kid, don't come back until I call. But I muttered *suicide* to her. She understood. No child needs to be exposed to the stench of a decaying body or the goings of such a nature. Well, the authorities show up, take statements, & making sure there was no foul play involved in NB's demise. There was a newspaper dated June 14, so it was about 2 weeks when we saw NB alive last. So NB was decaying for about 2 weeks in the summer heat & every time the authorities opened the door to go in, you can only imagine the smell of a body decaying as the wind catches & blows it through the area.
NB's beagle went to animal control (by law its the next of kin right to say what happens any animals of the deceased). S knew that NB had relatives but then again no one knew where they lived or how to contact them in an emergency even tho they lived in the local area.
I still have the image of NB's body hanging there in his closet in my head. The closet wasn't the big or that wide but NB knew what he was doing & did it in this case efficiently. What seem to be a brown leather strap wrapped around his neck & attached to a closet rod for hanging clothes, something draped over him like a brown cloth of some sorts & a chair kicked out.
I can only imagine when I sleep how it will effect me. I'm not sure I want to sleep.
Why NB did this, no one really knows. S said NB had bills building up, his house may have been in fore closure & he was a loner but seemed happy. Only 2 beings know, God & NB.
So if you need help or you know someone like this, get it & if you want to talk, please seek out someone who will listen (they're out there) regardless of your beliefs. Someone will always listen & help you or at least try to point you in the right direction to someone who will.
DarkMood
Song: Foreclosure Of A Dream
Group: MegaDeth
CD: Countdown To Extinction[/b]
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| Morons & Computers Dont Go Together |
| 05.13.04 (10:21 pm) [edit] |
[b]The title says it all.
Okay just a few things here.
1. If your going to fuck around on your spouse, please by a higher power be smart enough not to get caught. I have client right now going thru emotional hell. Not that I mind watching the anguish. Its actually quite lovely. But I digress. My client thinks that the spouse is fucking around, so I have to check email accounts, install stealth keyloggers, read emails. Even at times become the said target (spouse) to illicit a response so this can be confirmed. Ahhh cheating in the digital age. This is so lame its not even worth the time & effort. At any hint that I've found something, my client flies off the rocker, while I remain calm. But thats the clients emotional problem for not thinking things thru. Could be the spouse has a opposite sex friend. I know I know, you mean this could actually be the case. But the one the thing I notice is the viable lack of communication. One sided goes off without the facts. Oh well.
2. A relative has once infected thier computer with a yet another virus. How grand for me to go see porn on a computer. This relative thinks its a govt. conspiracy. What the fuck?? A govt. putting porn on your computer in order to take it over? Does anyone see where this is going. Hello? The lesson here is don't click on shit that your unsure of or anything of a questionable nature. I did install a pop up blocker & tried to show them how to use it properly but thats like telling a moron that some things on the web is bad for them. They just dont care nor do they seem to understand the shiney box & its functions.
I did spend some time on the computer correcting what I could. But this only further complicates things to a degree. Because they dont understand computers or the basic functions of it. Just that its a great thing for games & porn. Oh well such is the nature of the morons & technology.
Of course I do have an evil solution but thats not up for posting just yet, but lets just say it is really easy to just fuck the mind up with the aid of a computer.
Ahhh being evil is a such a dark gift. I like it.
DarkMood
Listening To: Evanescence
Song: Going Under
CD: Fallen[/b]
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| Just Been There not Here |
| 05.04.04 (12:05 am) [edit] |
[b]Sorry for the delay in blogging.
Been going thru a morbid depressing era.
Had to put down my mutt. I had him for 13 years. Best damn dog Ive ever had. Just couldnt handle not tripping over this mutt or just feeding him what ever off my plate.
His name was BloodFang. A german shepard/ gold lab mix. I'll post a pic here for all to see.
I'll elaborate later. Just tired.
But I'm back in force. So yes I do miss the blogging & the people here. Including the edgier people lol.
More Later
DarKMood
Listening To: W.A.S.P.
Song: Forever Free
CD: The Headless Children[/b]
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| When Morons Cyber |
| 04.08.04 (1:05 pm) [edit] |
[b]Okay yes I know I've been busy, but now I'm here.
Well, to start off, let me say this about a few things. When people ask the entire world to leave comments on their blog & THEN get upset over it, because I (or anyone) leave the usual sarcastic, acidotic, or comment, they get pissed. Because it didn't agree with their style of thinking or way of blogging. So what, you don't like what I or anyone else says (types), then don't ask for comments.
On to the next rant, it came to my attention that I was supposedly fucking someone here. Not that I wouldn't mind the sex action, but it was totally false. I guess the moron didn't take the time to equate the time difference, the location or the preference of what I like or dislike.
Now it would have been possible if I had a really huge super long shlong but alas, I am not that overly endowed. (currently looking into male enhancements. Hey bigger is better & it beats stuffing my underwear. I don't think my girl buys the concept that I'm just warming up my socks for my feet.) Really if I'm going to fuck a woman, I'm going to at least make it so I don't have to fly out & go broke at the same time. Gas prices are high enough, let alone flying to places plus I don't want an anal probe by those inspectors at the airport.
Oh you want to know where I've been. Well, a couple of things, fixing moron's computers & I've been doing some cyber investigation for a client on a spouse that may be cheating. So far just nothing. But see how it all ties in. Of course that's what happens when morons begin to think about sex. Someone gets the wrong idea & wham, next thing you know everyone is screwing but you, BUT you are suspected of screwing.
Must be nice to have all the sex in the world & not know about it.
DarkMood
Listening To: The Immortals
Song: Sonya (Go Go Go)
CD: Mortal Kombat The Album[/b]
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| Computer Morons - Living Viruses? |
| 03.30.04 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
[b]Why do morons think they wont get a virus when they download porn, don't scan there email or just in general accept files from other morons?
Okay reader(s) please note if your going to go porn or questionable sites (I really don't care if you do or don't) that at some point, some moron is going to want you to download there version of a viewer, toolbar, dialer or whatever. This is really bad. How bad...well, run into a wall really really fast. Did you do it? Hurts huh? That's how bad.
Here's a run down of what each program can & will do if you get infected.
Dialer - tells your modem (in a moron language, a magical device that speaks in tones to another magical being on the other side so it can tell them your magic box is ready to take you on that magical ride to porn land) to dial out to another company in another country at like $3.99 -- $9.99 a minute. You get stuck with the phone bill, they get a profit. Usually the government can't do a thing in this case & for the most part it's all legal & in another country. Nice you get screwed while looking at porn. Ironic huh?
Worms - Nice little piece of coding that replicates itself (in moron language, it magically makes more of it self & starts an army of destruction in your computer) once it gets in your system, it may attach itself to other files while deleting other files & it may start emailing other files out under your name, trying to infect other people.
Trojans - I particularly like this program. This program allows anyone hacker to get into your system & basically do what ever they want. Upload, download, delete, turn off your computer. You name it, the Trojan can do it. (Moron language -- the mean old wizard has a back door into your computer, because you left the keys in the magical castle.)
Spyware - This is software that runs in your background that allows corporations to spy on you. What these do is send out bits of information on you & what your surfing habits are. (moron language - they watch you when you go to www.beatingsheep.com).
Some install toolbars & hijack your home page, so they know you always going to go their site first. Nice huh.
Most of these viruses HAVE to be activated or opened by the user(s).
So far the clients I have dealt with & fixed there computers for them have had worms, Trojans, spyware & an outdated antivirus program(s).
Now I realize that Anti virus software (AVS) can be expensive & when your updates run out they hit you up for a new subscription rate. Sort of like a protection racket. Pay up or suffer. BUT what if I told you could get an AVS with updates for FREE? Yes, for FREE. Along with another program that eliminates spyware. The cost for the Spyware removal program. FREE.
Grisoft.com - AVG - anti virus program. I use it on my clients computers. It's free, the updates are free. If you find a better deal go for it.
Ad-aware - I don't have the link but do a search for it. Find it, download it. It will identify spyware & help eliminate it. It's all FREE.
Let's end the computer moron epidemic together or at least get them a shiny rock to look at.
DarkMood
Listening To: Cycle Sluts From Hell
Song: I Wish You Were A Beer
CD: Cycle Sluts From Hell[/b]
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| Week Good - Morons Bad |
| 03.25.04 (9:58 pm) [edit] |
[b]Okay so I haven't been blogging like I should have been lately. Sorry, just been busy with other things.
Well, for the most part, my week has gone like this. A sibling needed a car to take some kids to see the WWE. So I decided to loan out my 2nd car. Now this was the one where the battery was replaced. Bad thing though, it turned out that the rear lights aren't fully functional. So while I do have a car & it does run, just don't drive behind me, you'll never see the brake lights come on. The rear lights will be fixed in due time, this is my back up car. But I couldn't loan this car to haul 5 kids to see this event. So I called in a favor & got my sibling a van, to which I was going to chauffeur. I told him that he didn't have my car to use, but I did get him a vehicle. My sibling said not to worry, it seems that he had gotten the bosses truck from work. That would've been nice to know. But I understand, my sibling didn't hear from me in a certain amount of time so the boss gave him the keys to his truck. A bonus to my week is the police came around & threw out the fix it ticket, because he had noticed that my vehicle was turned around. I offered to start it, but he declined. I'm glad too, if he decided to check the lights. I would have been screwed & not in the good way too.
Now for the moron who posted about SHAWNA/HOOSIER GIRL/NAVYWIFE (who ever she wants to be). Get a life. First if the woman wants to the world to believe she's pregnant, what problem do you have (not saying she isn't, I don't have any real proof to deny that she is or isn't). Are you the moral police? If so shouldn't you be handing out citations for really bad porno sites. Don't hide behind the newbie crap. Come out in the open. Oh & that link, if you want to play the who's knocked up game, how do I know you didn't swipe that link from someone else. Really, next time you decide to have sex & want to get pregnant, swallow. I don't need morons breeding. It just thins out the chances of me getting really good tickets to see great concerts.
One post was enough as well, I would suggest you learn how to use a computer. Unless your on your back with your legs open, then I guess it's not your fault, your really not good a multi tasking.
Are you jealous because she has a life, or that you lack one? Don't answer it. I really don't want to know, because I don't care. Just read the background on my blog. Get the Picture? Good. Now move along.
DarkMood
Listening To: Rob Zombie
Song: Blitzkrieg Bop
CD: A Tribute To The Ramones[/b]
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